when people don’t like me back I automatically assume its because I’m not pretty enough or skinny enough rather than what it probably really is: my shitty personality or incapability to be nice to people without being a sarcastic mean douchebag because it’s easier to come to terms with the fact you’re unattractive and harder to realize that you need to stop acting the way you are because who you are is an asshole
so at the hotel’s ice cream shop, there’s this really cute boy named Alex who scoops the ice cream. He has a really sweet face. I’ve pretty much been going down there every day to see him, though I would never admit that. He seems so sweet though! Friday we talked briefly about college and today he somehow convinced me into upgrading into a waffle cone. which was a bad choice because it was a hell of a lot of ice cream. but i couldn’t deny those puppy eyes. I wish I would’ve said how cute i thought he was!